This weekend I was pretty grumpy was a little loney because a new release came out for Jason’s video game. This means he’s played as many as 18 hours a day and almost every night until wee morning hours. At least he took a break for a ten minutes dinner. Lol! I’m glad I have two cuties to spend time with all the time.
I rejected an opportunity to do something that was outside of my comfort zone, but could have been really fun; and because of my nerves. I decided not to do it. Often times I take that as a sign from God, to not do something when I feel really uncomfortable about it, because He’s spoken to me many times that way. It would have been an opportunity once a week to get out of the house and do something for me and even get a little bit of money for doing it, but decided it wasn’t worth it because I was worried about being away from the kids, and missing out on something fun with my family. I rationalized its by saying it wasn’t enough money for the time it would take me- which is true. I have no choice, but to trust my initial instinct, since I was praying for God’s answer, but I do feel some amount of regret, that I am not brave enough- but at least my worry is gone! I think I’ve lost a bit of myself after having kids. I love my family more than anything in the whole world. And my babies are so important to me. I just don’t feel like a ‘me’ sometimes.I feel like a mommy machine. All day, all night. I have so much respect for moms who work full time and our mommies too. I can’t imagine how hard that would be, to leave your kids all the time. I couldn’t even do it once a week. I feel so silly for complaining because I am so lucky that I don’t have to do that, it is a true blessing.
I am so thankful that the sun finally came out, I’m sure that a lot of my feeling blue this weekend was because of the rainy weather. A girl can only take so many gloomy days. I need some vitamin D! I’m hoping my I’m in a better mood this week! 🙂
As promised, here is my weekly post. This week was a good one-
nothing too exciting to report. We spent a lot time doing chores and crafts this week. We also took some Spring pictures of the kids in our yard. It has been super rainy the past couple days, but I don’t mind unless I have to go out!
I have had quite the little helper with everything I do! I have been trying to think of ways that this 2 ½ year old can learn while feeling like a participant. One of the best things she helped with this week was the dishes- my least favorite chore! and she ACTUALLY helped! She washed her cups and even helped put them away the next day! She also helps me empty the dishwasher (I take the silverware- so there is nothing sharp, and then she hands me everything else to put away)- it’s fantastic! She also assisted with laundry, helping put the clothes into the washer and dryer. It makes chores a lot more fun, it sometimes takes a little longer, or an extra mess to clean up. but think of the lessons she is learning. Plus we sing together while we work!
We also did lots of painting this week! We worked on projects for each of the kids rooms, our living room and mother’s day. We experimented with hand and feet prints. I had a large canvas for Aimlee to paint on, while I was finishing up my project!
Evan has been eating solid food everyday! He is almost up to one jar a day- this is quite exciting! Aimlee and Jason both took turns feeding him this week. We also gave him his lovey blanket for sleeping this week. We have a few good nights and a few “normal” nights, but he does seem to like lovey! He is so close to crawling. He keeps getting on his knees and rocking back and forth. That makes me a little nervous. He’s gonna start to MOVE!
This weekend was some sort of important weekend for Jason’s video games- so he played games practically every moment he wasn’t working in the garage. This gave me lots of special time with the kids, but we definatly missed him.
I have been trying to do a cardio workout every day during nap time. This is a challenge because some days, naps don’t always come at the same time. Especially since the 2 year old didn’t nap a few days last week. I don’t mind her playing in her crib, but when she puts her leg over the crib rail I get nervous she is going to know she can get out (we have a video monitor, so I can watch her)! So I rush upstairs to make sure she doesn’t. Quite the interruption during my workout. I still managed to do my cardio workout for 4 days last week which I was pleased with.
This week is Mother’s Day and I am enjoying preparing to celebrate our mothers! I love this time of year- beautiful Spring and summer’s coming!
My sweet friend C.O. made this for me
one of the Engagement pics
At my cousins wedding
I was just recently a bridesmaid in my cousin’s wedding. It got me thinking how much I love weddings. Like, LOVE weddings. In fact, it made me question, why I am not a wedding coordinator. Jason said I’m not bossy enough to be, but I definitely have good ideas and crazy organization and planning skills.
The past month has been so fun (and a little crazy) with all the wedding stuff. We hosted a bridal shower, attended a Bachelorette party, arranged flowers, had dress issues (I had to hem mine the day before, and it was too big) and then it finally came to the big day.
It is so wonderful watching two people who love each other, plan their life together. It made me think back to 4 years ago when I married the love of my life. We had already been dating for 6 years and had planned a future together. We were engaged for a year and 4 months. It felt like forever, but I wanted our wedding to be everything we could ever imagine (on a budget)! That was one of the best years of my life.
When it actually came to our wedding day, we were so excited. Everything was perfect! I can still remember so many details. I keep begging Jason to build me a slide show video of our pictures (with video clips too), including all our special songs and everything…. Someday. 😉
As I look back at our love, before we were married, when we got married and now – it’s true, love really does grow. We are still building dreams and working together to achieve them. Of course there is the occasional hiccup, like a new baby or new video game, but we learn to adjust and I think we even end up with a stronger relationship then before.