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Summer Already?!

It has been a super crazy busy 6 months. I have had 2 jobs for half a year now and have been working almost 40 hours a week and getting only 1 days a week off. I don’t know how mommies work full time. I was so exhausted. My Beauty Advisor job just ended last week, so I am getting to work Part time for now. Yay!

I had surgery at the beginning of June and have been struggling to just heal. I feel guilty for resting and laying around. SO I am trying to focus on that now that I finally have more time.

Summer is my favorite season of the year and today it officially arrives. I am so excited. I want to do so many fun things this year, I just hope I have the energy to play this summer!

During the past crazy few weeks we celebrated Jason’s birthday, Father’s day and will celebrate our anniversary this weekend. Jason has already gone on several motorcycle rides with his dad and brother. I spend almost everyday outside with the kids playing in the water table and baby pool. They love water!

Evan has been into T-ball for the past few months. So we got them a T-all set and he loves to play with his “bat and ball”! He is obsessed with his motorcycles and takes them outside to dinner and bed with him. He is also in to “swording”.  He uses hangers or anything else he can find to play swords with. He has also been “very TWO” lately.  He says “no” and has his own opinions about everything all the time. Almost like he is an individual- LOL! He is very opinionated about is outfits and hair. Which I secretly like because maybe he will be a good dresser- Ha! He still has the cutest and sweetest smile. Evan has been sleeping through the night every night since I have had surgery. I think it is because Daddy is putting him to bed- this may be the new norm.

Aimlee has been interested in art and crafting lately. She would pretty much rather do that then anything else. She has been doing really well on her math and language works in school. I try to do school with her 2-3 days a week, when we need something to “do”. She does struggle with getting impatient and frustrated, so we are working on that. She has liked going to church and being involved in the children’s activities. I am trying really hard to put my fears aside so she can enjoy being with friends and learn about Jesus!  She is so grown up lately and I love it. We are working on her temper though. She gets so upset and impatient. It is fun watching her learn new things- she is so interested in everything and asks so many questions.

I try to find little joys in each day since I am unable to do to many things yet while I healing. I am hopeful that I will stay busy this summer and get to many fun things! I am loving the sunshine!

 

YAY Spring!!

Well I am beyond happy to report that we survived another March without sickness in our family. Jason did have a cold and a sinus infection, but atleast but the kids never got sick and NO ONE had the tummy bug!! Our God is so good and he keeps blessing  me more then I could ever deserve. I am so thankful!

So now that we are almost to mid April, Spring has sprung and I am very optimistic that it is going to be a beautiful season with the anticipation of the warm summer that is coming! I love this time of year, there is so much hope!

I have been excited working on Aimlee with school lately. She is learning so much and almost always likes to do school. This week we used Easter eggs as her addition manipulatives. I have been using crafting as a good incentive to get her “hard” math or language “works” done. Some days she gets both math and language done- but usually just one or the other for now- she is only 4- so I try to not push her too hard, but rather encourage her. I have been starting to research homeschool Kindergarten programs- preparing for the Fall- can’t believe she will be in Kindergarten!!!!

So pouty after a temper tantrum!

Even has suddenly decided he is TWO and wants to be a part of the “Terrible Two” group of toddlers. He has always been such a sweet boy, and still is- BUT now he likes to throw full blown temper tantrums. Usually it’s about wanting a certain shirt or color cup- or a toy at the store or not wanting to get buckled in the car. Some days I do not even know what the problem is. Jason says he does not thrown tantrums for him- apparently he just saves those for me.  All I know is there is a lot of tears and screaming and then suddenly about 10 minutes later he is perfectly fine. I’m hoping this is a quick phase! He is still so cute though- even when he is screaming. It is hard not to laugh sometimes- or cry too!

I have been so busy working 2 jobs for about 2 months now. Hence the infrequent posts.  Most weeks I work 6 days and a little over 30 hours. I don’t really want to work 2 jobs-(who does ?!) but it is what we need to do for now. I have been working early, early in the morning and on evenings and weekends- I am super thankful that I get to spend the weekdays with the kids and do school and play! I have been super tired though and LOVE getting a day off!

I am super disappointed and discouraged about my weight and motivation the past few months. I wanted to lose 10 pounds a month ago and still am only 0-2 pounds depending on the day. I feel like I am eating healthy and always hungry- which to me would mean I should be losing a little- ugh! I really need to start working out consistently. I started a weekly dance class so hopefully that will help motivate me. Some days I just give up on dieting and think “I don’t care because I am frustrated”. I am hoping to see some results or motivation soon!

Jason has been gaming quite a bit lately. Watching him play is so funny to me. He gets so passionate and loud- and if you know him- that is not usually what he is like at all. He is really good at gaming though! I try to be an understanding wife and let him play without complaining too much- since that is what he likes to do for fun! I do miss talking to him or anything on the days/weeks that he plays non-stop while he is at home.

Well, I am so excited for the Spring weather and fun holidays and activities to come! I am so grateful for the blessings of God and the hope of each day! YAY SPRING!!!!

Welcome to March!

Welcome to March! My most dreaded of all the months in the year. In March’s previous, I have experienced extreme panic during the month of March (including child sickness and death). Last year at this time I was in counseling and it was a hard month. It had been a year, at that time, since I had one of the roughest months of my life. My counselor helped me learn to take each day at a time, then a week at a time and I was able to survive March last year without any problems. So, here we are again. I am so happy to report that I do not have the same concerns this March. I am a little concerned that something will happen, but am trying to stay positive. I am trying to focus on the beautiful things that are coming… Spring, warmth, better health and pink nail polish! I love Spring. There is something so inspiring about the “new beginnings” that can happen in Spring time. I am trying to stay focused and busy with better things. I pray long and hard for God to “get me through this month”.

One of the things I am trying to use to keep my mind occupied, is getting into shape. I set a goal to lose weight. My goal is to lose 10+ pounds by March 25. I gave myself 2 months and now it is the beginning of March and I have lost NONE.  To be fair I have been eating healthier but not necessarily less or working out regularly. So let’s see where I will be in a month. I am officially dieting AND eating better.

Honestly, I just need something the keep me occupied as I make it through the next month or two. Once it is May, I feel like “me”.  Not so worried and so much more fun!!!!

I am so thankful for the blessing of health that God has blessed my family with. That is the most amazing blessing. I pray that the blessing continues.

My Belly Runnith Over…

It’s that time of year again. Starting to think about eating better, being healthier and of course, losing weight. I had great success for the amount of work I put in last summer. I lost between 15-20 pounds by dieting alone. It’s amazing how being aware of what you eat can make a difference!

During the Fall and Winter I tend to stray away from dieting. We call it “enjoying” the season. The pie, mashed potatoes and gravy, cookies and my favorite… peppermint chocolate! I enjoyed the holidays a little too much, gaining back 11 pounds- yep- ELEVEN- since September. Do I have regrets? Nope, that pie was amazing! But it is time to get back on track… my completion is dull, my energy is down and my belly runnith over.

SO here is the goal… I would like to lose 10 pounds 2 months. January 25 – March 25. I plan to do my Isagenix shakes in the morning, a shake, string cheese and popcorn or salad for lunch and a light healthy dinner with protein and veggies.  I would also like to add in some working out too. Some cardio and ab workouts (which are my least favorite).  I just have to get over the initial feeling of hunger, getting my body used to eating less.

So I am starting out at 141 and would like to get to 131 pounds. Let’s see how it goes. I mostly want to bring health and wellness back into my body.  I need to get my mindset back on track. That is the hardest part for me. Once I am there mentally, I can do the rest.

So here is to the next 2 months, health and (probably most importantly) keeping me occupied until Spring!

It’s Hibernation Season

Something I learned in the past 6 months to a year is how important it is to know and share what is wrong. I have had a really hard time since I became a mother. I was a worry wart before I had kids, but having children has amplified that beyond what I could handle. After much counseling and now brain-regulating medicine I know am able to make sense of what my struggle is and what I can do to make it better. Before I tried to control every situation, but was unable to have the boundaries I needed and would worry myself sick and make my family crazy.

So let me start by telling you WHAT my struggle is… I am fearfully and anxiously afraid of people throwing up. So, the idea of my kids not being able to tell me if they are going to be sick, ensures so much worry and panic in me. Now that Aimlee is so verbal I am starting to feel more at ease with her, however I still have Evan and this is something that I worry about daily, hourly and even each minute. SO, my fear is that they will catch a tummy bug- period. Honestly writing, talking and even thinking about it about makes me anxious- my stomach hurts, I have trouble breathing and my body hurts and feels numb at the same time.

I can handle colds, injuries, surgery… anything…. except throwing up. It’s not just the cleaning up, but mostly the germs that go with it- in other words, fear that everyone in the family will get it. Surprisingly, I am not as fearful of myself throwing up, more just, if I am sick that I will spread germs to the kids or who will take care of them. Many of you may be thinking- duh Jason is there to help you. Nope, I don’t want him to help more then he HAS to. You see, I don’t want him to get sick either.

So the season is officially here, cold and flu season. I can deal with the colds and even the flu if it is the “cold” kind- just NO tummy bugs. Now that I am able to express what is wrong, I am able to make decisions to help me and my family. Part of this is setting boundaries, especially during the cold and flu season for where my kids go and what we do. So please try to understand that you invite us somewhere and we don’t go, we may be busy or this may be my way of “protecting” my family. Please know that we are so thankful for your friendship and love your family, but we just chose to not go this time.  If we do go, please do not feel offended if we wash hands several times. This helps me feel “better” about uncomfortable situations. Most of the time when we are with kids, I worry about sickness the whole time- I feel like I don’t get to have fun anyway…

I know I may seem crazy, but can’t help it. This is me being honest. But to be fair the first tummy bug Evan ever got, landed him in the hospital in the hospital for almost a week (with what the doctor’s assumed was a bacterial  infection, but could never say for sure).  The first time Aimlee got sick, she got the Rotavirus. It was the most horrible week in my life (and hers too).  Even before my kids got sick, I use to worry about Jason getting a tummy bug and was a basket case when he did. I can’t help the way that I feel about this, if I could… I would.  Sometimes I wonder why God had me be a mother, as this is a serious struggle for me and makes me question all of my motherly decisions.

You may feel sorry for my kids, because we don’t go to public play grounds or other fun kids places very often, but trust me- we have lots of fun. “Clean fun”- Ha ha!  Some of you who know me really well, know that I have made a lot of progress and we did a LOT of fun things this summer. Aimlee was in dance, swim and gymnastics. We went a couple carnivals and play dates. Jason is having trouble understanding why I am not as “care-free” in the winter months. I suppose this is just due to the higher chance of getting sick and everyone is all cooped up inside.

I am already crazy paranoid, which is the reason for this post.  I am hoping that my wonderful , fellow mommy friends will understand this is just who I am, and that I am so thankful for your friendship. I am always up for adult coffee outings J For my family, I know you may think I am crazy, but thank you for those of you who support my feelings and paranoia. I can ALWAYS count on my mom for her help.  I am hopeful that this will get better when the kids are older and can tell me how they are feeling. Until then, I take each day and try to not put us in more situations then is needed to cause worry.

Thank you to those who are understanding!

 

Lots of Fall Fun!

20161025_132718 20161025_123454 As much as I always dread summer ending, the Fall is always a fun time of year. We have been able to lot of fun things this Fall. It is always so pretty this time of year with the leave Falling and changing. My husband and I spend a lot of time taking family pictures in October. He is really talented and stays pretty busy.  We try to cram my birthday fun into any left over time we have. Check out some of his amazing work at http://jasonirons.com/  and https://www.facebook.com/jasonironsphotography/?fref=ts

I have taken the kids to a lot of fun places this Fall. We went to our church Fall Festival and visited the pumpkin patch several times. We also went to a garden store that has many fun attractions (some are even free. 20161027_120550Both kids got to ride on a train f20161027_110659or the first time. We went around the garden shop. We also got to go through a kid’s cornmaze. We got lost (I have a terrible sense of direction), we never did find the end, but at least made it back out the front entrance.

It has been unseasonably warm- which I LOVE!!!!  We try to spend every afternoon outside for at least a couple hours. I also try to sneak in a few good photo shoots with my kids too. I even borrowed Jason’s camera when I took the kids to play outside at my Gram’s complex. They had so much playing in the leaves!

We have done some fun Fall activities for school and lot of baking too. We made popcorn balls and dirt and worms- kid classics! Adults totally love them too! We also carved pumpkins and went to a few Halloween parties. E20161031_174921-1van was a Lion, which he refused to wear until Halloween day. Aimlee was Elsa, of course. Jason was “Jake” fro20161031_1735340m the famous State Farm commercial. I was a Lolypop Fairy, a witch and a nerd (got to mix it up).

With October to an end now, we look forward towards the holidays.  Next comes  Thanksgiving.  I get to help my Gram host a lovely brunch for whoever wants to come. Then we spend the afternoon and evening with Jason’s family. I love all things Christmas and get to help plan our family Christmas party this year. I try to make the time to spend time with the kids having fun not just stressing about gifts. Who has money anyways. I really want them to have memories of experiences, not just toys.  Looking forward to this beautiful holiday season.

 

All Fun, this Labor Day Weekend

This weekend was great one! It was a long weekend due to Labor Day. Everyday was so fun! We really took advantage of having s20160902_142036ome time off work and just enjoying life!

On Friday Jason had to run some errands. So we made a day of it and went to Castle Rock. We went to a f20160902_150253ew shops and then to the Outlet Mall. The kids loved throwing pennies in the water fountain. They were excited to visit the candy shop and get a little treat. What a nice day to be outside. It was so fun doing something as a family.

On the way home we called Jason’s brother Jeremy. We invited to the mall a little closer to home. We spent the evening window shopping there after dinner in the food quart. Yum! The highlight was the pet shop, of course! Aimlee found a little kitten. It was so cute. The kitty kept licking our fingers.

Saturday morning I had to work, but Jason went on a Motorcycle ride. We had a family birthday party to go to on Saturda20160906_173337y afternoon. The rest of the day was spent with Jason’s family. Evan took a late nap and was awake until past Midnight in his crib. He was just talking and playing. The kids had a good day.

Sunday was such fun day for me. In the morning we picked the peaches off our peach tree. I got to go to Elitches in the afternoon with a few cousins and my friend/BIL  Jeremy. Most of us had rain tickets, so were able to get in for free. We had a little bit of a slow start, but it was a BLAST! We decide to do the water park since it would be the20160904_173853 last time of the season. Then met up with a few more cousins and rode some fun rides.  It was packed from the holiday and the rides were so long, so we did not get to ride as many rides as we would have liked, but it was really fun!  I wish I could go to an Amusement Park everyday of my life! I love it so much!

Sunday evening we went down to the Taste of Colorado.  Two of my favorite buddies let me tag along. It was so exciting. We got to see Blues Traveler. It was a great show- wish we could have gotten closer to the stage.  The music was outstanding!  We a20160904_204619_1473049393638-1lso got to get some yummy food. I love being at yearly Festivals- the music, the food, the atmosphere… everything. I can’t believe that two of the things I love to do, but rarely get to- were on the same day. I was so thankful that Jason was willing to watch the kids so I could go have fun! He doesn’t care for crowds, rides or concerts- so it worked out ok.

Monday, was a productive one- in the morning. Got the lawn mowed, weeds pulled, groceries bought an20160905_174159d started to prep for the week. Monday evening I went to the Taste of Colorado with a couple of Family and Friends- so nice having a big family! We got to see the Kenny Wayne Shepherd Band. What an AMAZING show. It was really one of the best shows I’ve ever been to. It was a true Blues/Rock music lover’s dream. Kenny Wayne Shepherd has such an awesome gift. It was incredible to watch and hear him play. We got to see the show so close I could see his fingers moving up and down the guitar- true talent. Finished the night with ice cream.  So thankful my hubby let me have two fun nights in a row!

So now, it is back to normalcy. At least it will be a short week. Aimlee is very excited to start Preschool tomorrow  (at home)!

 

A Reminder for me to be Thankful

What a crazy few weeks it has been.  Three weeks ago  Jason got a pain behind his eye. We thought it was a migraine coming on. Over the next couple days it developed into many more symptoms. We thought it might be a cold, but then there were signs that something else might be wrong. He went to the Doctor on Monday and he thought it was a virus or cold. Monday night he had cold sweats, a fever and was in pain. All of his muscles and joints were killing him. He ended up going to the ER. They thought he may have liver issues, but let him go and told him to follow up with his normal dr.

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He had to wear sunglasses because of his headache

On Wednesday he started showing more concerning symptoms and we called the Dr and he said to go to the ER right away (again)! By the time we got settled into his ER room he was so sick. He had no energy, had a terrible headache and his joints and muscles hurt so bad. They ran test after test, ultrasounds on his organs, Xrays and more blood tests then I have ever seen. They came in with actual bottles to collect his blood. He became weaker and more tired with each hour that passed. They ended up getting him admitted to a room about 1:30AM. There were still no answers. His liver was showing signs of hepatitis and many other concerning issues. He was so tired that when the doctors and nurses came in he could not even open his eyes to speak to them. By the time I left, they said that they were not sure what was making him so sick, but that they would be running more tests about 4AM and the Drs would be back around about 10AM.

I went home to be with the kids (who my mom so graciously watched for me all night). By the next morning there were no more answers. He still had a terrible headache, but was starting to feel better. Once he was given medicine for his head and was able to actually think- he decided he wanted to go home. He had to walk around to prove he was ok to go home. We left the hospital with no clear answers- the doctors20160804_144545 thought it may be Mono or another virus, but the tests would not be in for a few days at least. The next couple days were pretty rough, Jason did nothing but sleep. I had to beg him to drink and he only ate jello and popsicles. I have never been so excited to see him eat a normal meal (pizza) like 5 days later.

On Saturday, he got a call saying that he tested positive for Mono and that all the other test were negative. I have never been so relived in my life. I knew that Mono had a long recovery period, but to know that he was starting to show signs of improvement and it was not something life threatening was amazing. Our God is so wonderful and perfect. I am so thankful to know that he is always on my side. What would I have to hope in without Jesus Christ? I have used this as a life lesson to appreciate my wonderful husband. I have been a lazy wife, not giving as much attention to Jason as I should. This has taught me to be thankful and give thanks to God everyday for the things He has given me. There I a reason that all of this happened. Maybe that is why- I am not sure. All I know is that each day  for the past two weeks I have been so thankful for the bles20160804_155809sings God has given me in my life.

 

 

Summer Fun

I love summer time. There are so many fun things to do and it is so bright in the morning! I love that the sunset is so late in the evening too; it makes the day feel so long! I have been trying to give the kids plenty to do outside (in the shade)- to enjoy this beautiful weather. They mostly play in the water table. We got a baby pool for $3 last week, and will be using it lots too.

I am trying to make the most of each day of the summer. It never seems to last long enough. I know Fall is just around the corner.20160721_125844 I am starting to prepare for Aimlee’s school lessons and planning to put her in an extra curricular activity for early Fall. I am so excited to have a new pair of (super cheap and cute) cowgirl boots- which may make the season changing a little more tolerable. But for now, I’m enjoying each, sunny, hot and long summer day!

I hope to get out to the pool a few more times, spend a few days with friends, and get a little more of a tan.  I have been spending the past week or so, starting to plan the kid’s birthday party. Aimlee is so excited to help me make all the plans.

Evan has been learning new words each day. He recently has been showing how much he loves cows like his Gram! We even went to the Cow Appreciation Day at Chick Fil A.  Last week we had our first bee sting20160728_101917 when he stepped on a bee in the grass.  How many times can Mommy say “ let’s put on our shoes before we go outside”. Nope, we are almost 2, and so independent… Until we get hurt and then we want Mommy! So silly.

The kids love playing and learning each day. It is so fun to see what they will want to do! I have also enjoyed getting to do some of the fun summer things that I like to do too. Right now, I am just wanting to enjoy each beautiful day that God has made- and I will rejoice in it! 20160724_190238

30 Year Old in Braces

I was fortunate enough to get braces the pas couple weeks. I have wanted braces for as long as I could remember. I was really hopeful I would be able to get the Invisaline clear retainers, but after two consultations, was advised to get regular braces. Regular braces will be able to do things that Invialine wouldn’t be able to.

So far, iIMG_20160709_102432t has been worse than imagined. And Not only due to the mouth sores which haven’t seemed to get better, but I can’t chew regular food because my bite is way worse then I ever knew. My back teeth don’t touch at all with the braces on. So I have been eating a lot of smoothies, mash potatoes, yogurt and fish.

I feel so self conscious of the braces when I smile. Even though most of them are clear, I still just don’t feel like myself.  I don’t want to smile or talk because I feel like a little child and my mouth feels so dry and big-even bigger than usual.

None the less, I am still so so thankful for braces. I saw progress with the gap in my teeth in less then a week. Now, if only the other teeth would hurry and move. The orthodontist says it will be about 18 months- that sounds like torture. Hopefully I will get used to them. I just try to keep remembering that it is a blessing and to treat it as such.

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