Archive | November 2016

It’s Hibernation Season

Something I learned in the past 6 months to a year is how important it is to know and share what is wrong. I have had a really hard time since I became a mother. I was a worry wart before I had kids, but having children has amplified that beyond what I could handle. After much counseling and now brain-regulating medicine I know am able to make sense of what my struggle is and what I can do to make it better. Before I tried to control every situation, but was unable to have the boundaries I needed and would worry myself sick and make my family crazy.

So let me start by telling you WHAT my struggle is… I am fearfully and anxiously afraid of people throwing up. So, the idea of my kids not being able to tell me if they are going to be sick, ensures so much worry and panic in me. Now that Aimlee is so verbal I am starting to feel more at ease with her, however I still have Evan and this is something that I worry about daily, hourly and even each minute. SO, my fear is that they will catch a tummy bug- period. Honestly writing, talking and even thinking about it about makes me anxious- my stomach hurts, I have trouble breathing and my body hurts and feels numb at the same time.

I can handle colds, injuries, surgery… anything…. except throwing up. It’s not just the cleaning up, but mostly the germs that go with it- in other words, fear that everyone in the family will get it. Surprisingly, I am not as fearful of myself throwing up, more just, if I am sick that I will spread germs to the kids or who will take care of them. Many of you may be thinking- duh Jason is there to help you. Nope, I don’t want him to help more then he HAS to. You see, I don’t want him to get sick either.

So the season is officially here, cold and flu season. I can deal with the colds and even the flu if it is the “cold” kind- just NO tummy bugs. Now that I am able to express what is wrong, I am able to make decisions to help me and my family. Part of this is setting boundaries, especially during the cold and flu season for where my kids go and what we do. So please try to understand that you invite us somewhere and we don’t go, we may be busy or this may be my way of “protecting” my family. Please know that we are so thankful for your friendship and love your family, but we just chose to not go this time.  If we do go, please do not feel offended if we wash hands several times. This helps me feel “better” about uncomfortable situations. Most of the time when we are with kids, I worry about sickness the whole time- I feel like I don’t get to have fun anyway…

I know I may seem crazy, but can’t help it. This is me being honest. But to be fair the first tummy bug Evan ever got, landed him in the hospital in the hospital for almost a week (with what the doctor’s assumed was a bacterial  infection, but could never say for sure).  The first time Aimlee got sick, she got the Rotavirus. It was the most horrible week in my life (and hers too).  Even before my kids got sick, I use to worry about Jason getting a tummy bug and was a basket case when he did. I can’t help the way that I feel about this, if I could… I would.  Sometimes I wonder why God had me be a mother, as this is a serious struggle for me and makes me question all of my motherly decisions.

You may feel sorry for my kids, because we don’t go to public play grounds or other fun kids places very often, but trust me- we have lots of fun. “Clean fun”- Ha ha!  Some of you who know me really well, know that I have made a lot of progress and we did a LOT of fun things this summer. Aimlee was in dance, swim and gymnastics. We went a couple carnivals and play dates. Jason is having trouble understanding why I am not as “care-free” in the winter months. I suppose this is just due to the higher chance of getting sick and everyone is all cooped up inside.

I am already crazy paranoid, which is the reason for this post.  I am hoping that my wonderful , fellow mommy friends will understand this is just who I am, and that I am so thankful for your friendship. I am always up for adult coffee outings J For my family, I know you may think I am crazy, but thank you for those of you who support my feelings and paranoia. I can ALWAYS count on my mom for her help.  I am hopeful that this will get better when the kids are older and can tell me how they are feeling. Until then, I take each day and try to not put us in more situations then is needed to cause worry.

Thank you to those who are understanding!


Halloween Party

I co- hosted a Halloween party with my Brother in Law this year. He had the space at his house this yea20161021_210352r and earned free catering, so we thought it would be fun. This was my first Halloween party I have hosted ever. It was really fun. I was on a bit of a tight budget. Since the food was mostly taken care of, there was not a ton of other things that I needed to spend money on.

20161021_210345We had some fun games, including glow in the dark beer pong- which I don’t think anyone actually played with beer ( Also we had giant Jenga and a fire pit outside.  We kept  most of the rooms dark (seems to be a good ambiance for Halloween) except the kitchen. We used glow sticks 12/ $1.00 to add light around the room.  We also replaced our normal living room lights with black light bulbs.20161021_222222

I made super cute candy necklaces for favors, so everyone went home with candy ( This seemed much more fun then the traditional candy bags. I also made some fun decorations made out of cans. This is such a fun idea and cost me nothing. We ate a lot of soup and beans the few weeks before. Then I used my acrylic paint and painted the main color- some took more coats then others. Then I used white paint for the eyes  and black paint or sharpies for the eye balls. I made many of these and used them for décor around the house.20161020_153920

Almost all the décor, candy and tableware I got was  from the Dollar Tree, they have some amazing deals.  Most of the party decorations I either made, borrowed or bought for super cheap. Remember I was on a super tight budget (my husband was already complaining for how much a spent on my last party). One of my favorite decorations, was made from table cloths ( This is such a fun way to add color and dimension to any party space. I made some that were short to cover windows and some that were long for the photo op and to divide the party space from the bathroom and bedrooms.

One of the most fun things you can do with a Halloween party is the use of pump
kins.  You can use them for a cooler and put ice a drinks in it ( or as a dip holder ( I put queso in a white pumpkin.  You can use them as bowls or décor or even as part of games. There are so many fun things to do with pumpkins. The best part is, now I have some cute uncarved pumpkins that I am going to use as décor for Thanksgiving. img_3865

I think everyone had a fun time at the party. The key to a good party is always the people.  Once the guest list is made and the invites go out- I focus on all the details. These are the things that made the party festive and fun. It was a successful Halloween party, especially for being the first one I have hosted.


Lots of Fall Fun!

20161025_132718 20161025_123454 As much as I always dread summer ending, the Fall is always a fun time of year. We have been able to lot of fun things this Fall. It is always so pretty this time of year with the leave Falling and changing. My husband and I spend a lot of time taking family pictures in October. He is really talented and stays pretty busy.  We try to cram my birthday fun into any left over time we have. Check out some of his amazing work at  and

I have taken the kids to a lot of fun places this Fall. We went to our church Fall Festival and visited the pumpkin patch several times. We also went to a garden store that has many fun attractions (some are even free. 20161027_120550Both kids got to ride on a train f20161027_110659or the first time. We went around the garden shop. We also got to go through a kid’s cornmaze. We got lost (I have a terrible sense of direction), we never did find the end, but at least made it back out the front entrance.

It has been unseasonably warm- which I LOVE!!!!  We try to spend every afternoon outside for at least a couple hours. I also try to sneak in a few good photo shoots with my kids too. I even borrowed Jason’s camera when I took the kids to play outside at my Gram’s complex. They had so much playing in the leaves!

We have done some fun Fall activities for school and lot of baking too. We made popcorn balls and dirt and worms- kid classics! Adults totally love them too! We also carved pumpkins and went to a few Halloween parties. E20161031_174921-1van was a Lion, which he refused to wear until Halloween day. Aimlee was Elsa, of course. Jason was “Jake” fro20161031_1735340m the famous State Farm commercial. I was a Lolypop Fairy, a witch and a nerd (got to mix it up).

With October to an end now, we look forward towards the holidays.  Next comes  Thanksgiving.  I get to help my Gram host a lovely brunch for whoever wants to come. Then we spend the afternoon and evening with Jason’s family. I love all things Christmas and get to help plan our family Christmas party this year. I try to make the time to spend time with the kids having fun not just stressing about gifts. Who has money anyways. I really want them to have memories of experiences, not just toys.  Looking forward to this beautiful holiday season.